Such violent opinions. I was left overwhelmed, unsure, and turning to anyone for answers to mask an eating feeling that something just wasn’t right.
There must be something wrong with me, I assumed; I should be in love, I should want to marry him, I should be ready. I scoffed at the terror that accompanied thoughts of commitment. “You are just afraid of being tied down…”
Looking back, I see how disjointed my thoughts really were. Yes, love is a choice. 80% of marriage and commitment is a choice, but there is a 20% that just… is a feeling. Its a gut reaction that something IS or ISN’T right. You cannot let yourself turn away from what you feel is right, for something you think should be right.
There must be something wrong with me, I assumed; I should be in love, I should want to marry him, I should be ready. I scoffed at the terror that accompanied thoughts of commitment. “You are just afraid of being tied down…”
Looking back, I see how disjointed my thoughts really were. Yes, love is a choice. 80% of marriage and commitment is a choice, but there is a 20% that just… is a feeling. Its a gut reaction that something IS or ISN’T right. You cannot let yourself turn away from what you feel is right, for something you think should be right.
