There is something innately terrifying about being vulnerable. It means ya gotta let protective barriers fall and face possible rejection in your stripped state. Perhaps the most nerve-wracking part of opening up is letting all people know; that you are flawed. You are human. Raw & Simple.
And I...I am Alissa.
I am human.
Some times I glory in that. and sometimes I anguish in it. Admittedly, I still make mistakes. Com certeza I still struggle to heal those achilles heels (for truly I have more than one-heh heh get it? heal the heel hahaha). But I am okay with all this because I am trying. I am struggling to overcome the "natural me" daily, weekly, monthly. You could say that I am in a constant labor of love. It seems as I inch ever closer to The Light, natural rays illuminate and draw attention to my frailties and foolishness–which at times can be quite embarrassing– leading me to turn into a tomato face and admit " I ain't as good as I'd hoped."
But all in all, I find transparency relieving. It allows me to walk up to my good ol self and say " AAy, you aiint too shabby. We still got some stuff to work on, but you've got a great heart, so lets give it a go!" Its nice, not trying to constantly and meticulously to cover up all of those weaknesses. That is draining, fear-inducing, and frankly annoying. As I see clearly who I am and where I am ... I can also perceive what I need to improve, what I love and appreciate, and be Ay-OKAy with errething.
And that my friends,
brings me a whole lot of peace.Aiiight lets fist pump on being real.
even if its like a crazy person
Because life is good people.
life is good.
