I dont really get worried
something is wrong or I am seeing things wrong,
Even typing things out right now is making me worried about worrying.
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I went to church today and a speaker talked about her past life as a highschooler and how she was consistently praised by adults for "not doing things."
not doing drugs
not partying
not dressing like a caveman
not acting a certain way
she loved people telling her that she was so "righteous" and on the "right path."
but then she had this huge epiphany.
wouldn't she rather be known for the things she was doing, rather than wasn't doing?
that struck me pretty hard.
I am guilty.
I have been actively avoiding conversations with strangers simply because its awkward and time consuming and takes effort that I should be spending in other areas of my life... (At least those are my feeble excuses.)
I have been doing.... ugh
it hurts me to say it.
sometimes I will do the bare minimum.
Rather than excelling and truly wanting to learn and grow. I will scrape by looking for better things ahead.
I have been actively avoiding conversations with strangers simply because its awkward and time consuming and takes effort that I should be spending in other areas of my life... (At least those are my feeble excuses.)
I have been doing.... ugh
it hurts me to say it.
sometimes I will do the bare minimum.
Rather than excelling and truly wanting to learn and grow. I will scrape by looking for better things ahead.
I have been focusing on My Future. My Plans. what I Need. rather than what God needs me to be for others.
This wasn't meant to be a confession party
I'm trying to be honest
But maybe it will help someone realize what I have just realized.
We are meant to become a part of something bigger than ourselves, to become part of this beautiful web of society, we are meant to stretch and become more than we ever imagined.
But we can not do that huddled in our own little bubbles of happiness.
Sometimes it's good to take a leap
and find your wings on the way down.
This wasn't meant to be a confession party
I'm trying to be honest
But maybe it will help someone realize what I have just realized.
We are meant to become a part of something bigger than ourselves, to become part of this beautiful web of society, we are meant to stretch and become more than we ever imagined.
But we can not do that huddled in our own little bubbles of happiness.
Sometimes it's good to take a leap
and find your wings on the way down.
